20060829

allsnotsohot

its been shit. and everythings f'ing up! electronics just refuse to work with me.. just like everything else. so i wonder why im surprised really. first of all, the webcam. argh! i tried it out on 3 different comps for 3 different hrs and its still undetectable. you have no idea how freaking pissed off i was ok. plus i had an 8am class which was a complete watse of time anyways and an 18page handout to read. and HELLO, by den i had zero concentrate and mood for tht. was damn happy la, yano bout the webcam and stuff, den when it wouldnt work at all, it was like a rug had been ripped from under me, not a pleasant feeliing i might add. thats has been happening alot. and secondly, on-going problem. my fuck phone. cant msg properly cos the dumb thing kps sending half written msges and my bills gon be a fucking bomb cos of that. its been a fucked up weekend all in all. hold up, its been a fucked up month.

excluding crazy car rides and the fact tht ill b getting my laptop tmr(which had better not turn psycho on me too), everything else as been just peachy.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:23

20060828

it'sonlyou.

you truely are that special person that has filled the void in my heart.
my love for you only grows. and i cant try to stop it, and i dont want to.
if only you knew, my heart beats for only you.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 23:02

20060826

ifyoucouldseemenow

its odd, because ive been looking at you and i was used to your face, knew it inside out. could even see it clearly even when i shut my eyes, knew that there was a scar near your right eye, one cheekbone was slightly higher than the other, that your bottom lip was larger than ur top. i knew it so well, but isnt it strange how different people can look when you actually look at them in the eyes? they suddenly appear to be someone else. if you ask me, its true what they say bout eyes being the windows to your soul.

i had never felt that feeling before, but i put that down to not having been in the position before.
idoloveu.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:39

20060823

LOL

go to www.mrbrownshow.com and freeking hear the 22nd aug post. mr brown is the funniest mofo in singapore okays. haha he beats that mole pck hands down!! hahahahah HILARIOUS i tell you!! wah lao eh, i almost fell off my chair laughing. LOL

SO GO LISTEN! HAHA

à moi vous êtes parfait; 14:29

20060822

itsmybirthday!WOO

super red faceee argh! fatface!

anyways! the day started out nice and slooowww. met jezzie at the bus terminal opp harbs and took the shuttle to sentosa! haha yay havent hung out with her ina long time, im surprised we still cud talk loads!! haha it was a great catching up session! yay so we got to siloso and the entires places changed!! i havent been there since...hmmmm... j1!! so abit sua kuuu hahaha and the last time was with the both of em too, where we gt burnt too and had fun too! HAHA anyways, we picked our spot and got down to some serious tanning!! haha ok a lil too serious cos now IM RED!! and my back hurts like crappp shit lectures are gon be a bitch!

SEE?! wahlao

so we while waiting fer vone and eug to get their butts down to the oh-so-deserted beach, me and jez cam whored abit! HAHAHA so funny la! she was trying to take jumping shots of me but her reaction+her cams reaction only ABIT slow. so cun get any, plus i duno how to pose. LOLOL. so yano, no jumping siaosiao pics! haha

den after like 3 hrs, the slowpoks ala the vone and eug finally gt there! so went to 7-11 to get em! we took the beach tram! yay! haha i havent taken before la okay! haha! so funny la. we gt on the wrong one, but realised only aftr the dude announced the destination thing. so we jumped off the tram and gt onto the other! haha!

they came, we talk talk talk tanned talk talk smre took many many more pictures den jez had to go for her dental ): sooooo.. me and vone and eug contd talking and gossiping and taking pics again! HAHA wat else is there to do at sentosa right? lol those two lovey doveys. buah tahan! haha im kiddin! but quite sweet la, him willing to spend the day with a buncha girls and hear their bitching and being their camera man. haha so kudos to the hot date! haha

some pictures..

on the tram! hahaha

me and fishballs!

me and miss pink!

em two acting sehh.

i heart the vone!!

me and jez on the deserted beach!!

hah the two nutjobs!

bright sunny day! BUT! lousy cam

:p

no more vones glam shot -

HUGS!!

hahahaha damn funneh la this picture! vone ur a doppeee. LOL

so aftr i gt seriously burnt, and vone gtta shade tanner we went off to shower and took the skyride thing. haha cos we just dyed our hairs the day before right, the dye came off while showering lo! our hairs were bleeding!! haha stain the towels smre. crapola! mom sure nag!

oppps! forgot to mention we had choco milkshake and the cookies and cream reminded me of you!! haha the place was nice and windy! can sit there and rot all day! teehee!

oohh! and the skyride thing was quite fun! but freeky!! i was damn scared my flipflops were gon fall off by some freak gust of wind so was trying really hard to clutch it tightly betwn my toes! haha o! by den the 3 of us like majorly shacked alr so din wanna ride the luge thing down. must control and use our brains la, so duwan. lol! so we just took it up and down. wth! while going back down the whole stupid thing stopped lo! smre we were at the highest point of all! shit!! the jap family beside us started freeking out! haha the small boy was hysterical la, babbling like a monkey high on peanutbutter jelly in JAP smre!!LOLOL DAMN FUNNY! after tht we figured out why! cos its an emergency stop thing for idiots(EUGENE, THATS YOU!!) who get their belongings ie. bags or wat not, stuck somehow!! haha so they gtta stop the whole entire thing so tht u dont kill urself trying to save ur things! hahhaha of course! at the expense of the other pple halfway up/down on the ride getting the shock of their lives, who will hence proceed to panic, eg. the jap boy! hahaa

the ladiess!

and so.. was uber hungry aftr a tiring nua-ish mega photo-taking HAWT day!!! so we took a very sleepy ride down to AV to eat! rice+lala+sambal kangkong+stingray+sugar cane(tho without lemon! wonder why!!)= WOOOOOO SUPER FULL! haha plus being the sweeties tht they were, they decided o pay for me!! awwwh? thanks you guys! and took a bus back aft. wahh shacked i tell you!

lalas hehee

we're silly!

i HEART the girls

à moi vous êtes parfait; 20:06

20060821

yaytomorrowstomorrow!(:

à moi vous êtes parfait; 20:21

20060820

tennis,food,cowcatsandmoree

first things first, andy roddicks on fiiiiiiree this week! woooo! and he plays tonight. ciny finals against ferrero. lucky not against federer or nadal if not diee, actually no cos they both are out also but yano wat i mean!! lol i wanna watch! oh! plus manunited plays fulham tonight and the timings dont clash! yay haha but bad vibes for tht one la, forever bad vibes. haha

yesterdays bbq was not tht bad. abit boring la(sorry ryan!) haha but we din even get to talk to you or what not, so we just kpt to ourselves. ur smu friends are oddballs btw. esp that fat fuck. haha cos ryan gt thrown in the pool, you see its his birthday and everything. but i dont see the point cos he lives just upstairs anyways right, and ur just asking to be put in the pool urself(and you dont live upstairs). haha

so anyways, 4 people hoisted him by his stubby limbs, one of which is spoilt, and throws him into the pool, the dumbass nearest to the pool lost his footing and fell in too. his phone gt shot and wat not. lol like i said, dumbass!

ok back to the fatso. so, apparently no one wanted to throw him in. duh hes too fat what right? ud need a tractor or forklift to 'throw' him into the pool. anyhows, he asked ryan if he wanted some company and promptly jumped into the pool anyways when ryan sed nothing. haha the worst thing was when after he'd slowly managed to lug his fats outta the water, he asked randeep, OF ALL PEOPLE, if he wanted a hug or not(man boobs and all, not a pretty sight i assure you. if there were anyway to unsee sth id be the first to sign up!) haha so he being randeep, everyone expected a bc(bastard child) retort. so yano, we just waiiittted for it... haha den randeep was like, do ya want a punch in your face or not? asshole tone i might add. HAHA i mean cmon lo, he doesnt even know youu. and u wanna give ur hugs,(HELLO, again, manboobs!! freeky) hahaha

o and being the anti-social people we were we decided to play tennis and not mingle. btw, we din bring no tennis stuff!! but he had racquets la, so we played anyways, in slippers, jeans, watches! HAHA stupidest thing to do ever!! damn funny la, and we managed to play for 45min like a buncha psychos! hilarious!! o! and carm got hit in the head by the ball(smre she was on my side!), but if tht went over quite good shot right? haha did i mention tht IM SORRY! teehee

and right aftr tht we wenta eat smre and drink some of ryans whitewine and sth else. dont remb. but itwas like nail polish remover laaaa, can 'smell the fumes' as randeep puts it. haha and drinking and eating loads aftr 45min of tennis, not so good combination! im surprised no one puked hahaha but we were so full, we din even wait to eat the cake, just left aft ryan blew out the candles. haha its was pretty late i might add, like 11, cos he conveniently forgot bout the cake too. haha

o btw, we gt him a borders gift card. hahaha couldnt find anything uhm, appropriate so.. haha gift cards are the best anyways!! ya can go mad shopping for stationary and what not. but compared to what his smu friends gt him, which was a new 200$ tennis racquet haha QUITE PATHETIC! aiya, there were like a bunch of em and 4 of us. plus, we poor people right? students k and one driver ns man. we're alr in like 20000$++ debt cos of tuition fees lo, so yano what they say bout the thought that counts! and thts the most impt thing.. IT IS LA. hahah

and i went to cut my hair ytd too, before lunch, thank goodness man. now its not so outta control! wooots! oh, and im seriously thinking of dying it red! haha siao abit. but see how, fyi: not ahlian red la. a deep deep shade. know wat i meann? ohno, overly long post. ohoh! but one last thing, cowcats are the cutest things that walked the planet! everrr!! awwhh! well, apart from one other thing :p

ps. i miss MISS MISS you muches!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 15:03

20060819

bbqday

ohno. gtta get my butt down to town asap man. ryans bbq is latr and we havent gtten him a gift. shitt, but tht rich boys gt practically everything alr. irritating

ohoh! and ytd wasnt a bad day at all. wenta sch, geog lect. went to eat abit. argh but gtta do tutorial balloting soon and thts really annoying. so bloody troublesome. ahh but at least gt to talk :p

new favourite song! its beennn ginrob!! really. no new songs to listen to and everything i have is depressing. hope oth comes back soon, they always feature nice bands haha so found a new songg! yay! imogen heap's speeding cars. soooooooo nice! not exactly happy but yano, its nicee! and it gets stuck in ur head. me and bridge kpt repeating tht song while painting her artpiece and dad was nearby, so hes like humming it evry other day now as well. haha! kinda funny O! but tdy i heard paris hiltons stars are blind in the car and THAT got stuck in my head instead. like til now im still humming THAT without realising. her songs are 100% evil, EVIL, i tell you. funny how evil spells live backwards. haha

so gtta run!! before i end up late. again. ciaos!!!

ps. tuesdays gon be fun! yay i cant wait to hang with the girls! im sooooo amped!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 16:45

20060818

whenithappens

when you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. when a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. but as for your heart, when that breaks, its completely silent.

you would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even some sort of ceremonious sound like the crashing of cymbals or the ringing of a bell. but its silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

If there is a noise, its internal. it screams and no one can hear it but you. it screams so loud you ears ring and your head aches. it thrashes around in you chest like a great white shark caught in the sea. that's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, thrashing, panicking, trapped. like a prisoner to its own emotions.

but that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable. it's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty water, but when it actually breaks, its silent. you're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 16:44

20060817

ahhthursdays

thurdays are gon be worst than mondays! I SWEAR! lectures are from 8-2. STRAIGHT. thursdays are really gon suck. but having people to go lectures with helps and it wasnt as bad as it thought itd be. really!

went to munchie monkeys today with chrystal fer lunch after my 6 hr jam-packed, shittified, gnirob lectures. the foods good! i was soooo hungry! had passionfruit soda, pasta and calamari. hehe so super full please. and the lects werent as bad la. CEPT POLITICAL SCIENCE. wasnt even listening much. haha owells, watever, she din teach much so.. not my fault! haha and i wanted to blow off stats, again!! cos so f'ing early haha but found someone to go with, and decided tht i shant ps him, to stop being sucha slacker and just go. you know? o!! the lecturers damn cute la. charboh one.. hahaha chipmunk face! and the way she pronounces stuff damn funnehhh omg. we kept sniggering whenever she pronounced salary as 'sa-lad-ry' or sth like tht. its like pronouncing wound as 'oound' HAHA damn stupid! hahaa anyways i only go schls on mondays, thursdays and fridays. for now.. so.. yay!! 3-freekin-day week! haha

im really tired now. brains not really functioning cos its so dang hawt and its still adapting to absorbing stuff again. so im off to nap for abit! oyeah!! i cant wait to get my laptop! went to do the loan stuff ytd, and aft tht went to some prata place to eat. guess what the shops name was! niqqi's hahaha how freeking cutee

à moi vous êtes parfait; 16:23

20060816

teddygeiger'ssadasssong

Sitting here counting the hours
Waiting for the sun to kiss the sea
Hypnotized by the fragrance of the flowers
They remind me of,
You and me.

Making plans just to stop the aching
Chasing thoughts from a million miles away
Hypnotized as another dawn is breaking
I rehearse the words,
I wanna say.

There's one love in a lifetime
Like two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'd be mine
For when five and six are through,
Seven days without you.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 23:50

20060815

apparentlyiwasfeelinggood

à moi vous êtes parfait; 13:20

20060814

mondays,sigh

mondays are back with a vengence! firstly, its the first damn day of sch. arghhh! the horror! my poor brain which has been chillling in lalaland and turning itself into mush for the past 9 months can't hardly take it. kinda shell-shocked, cos everythings unfamiliar and weird and the PLANS the timetables. oh plus i keep messing up! moms glad tho cos im not wasting away anymore ): well, at least there arent any classes till thursday so im pretty pleased bout tht.

vones wants to go out later abit, apparently to cheer me up. haha kinda sweet huh! i think we shud go stationary shopping, tht always makes me feel better. and i hope she brings her cam(new cam i might add), so maybe there'll be pictures up later. but maybe not! see my mood :p

oright, i got my phone. finally. my v3i! oh and ill be getting my laptop too, den i wun have to put up with this piece of shit crapass of a computer anymore. for the record im not just saying, it restarted on me when i was almost done with the previous post and i din save it. so a big F U to the comp. aye, rambling. ohohoh! n my moms gon get me a webcam! so niceee of her la, cos she knows im sad but she wont say. so thts like 3 expensive advanced and belated birthday presents.

anyways, tho im missin ur ass im kinda learning how to cope already. it still sucksass, but yano, at least ive found many many many ways to communicate with the niqq through the net. even free phone calls please. kinda cool, cept fer the damn time difference, messes up everything, i hate that! i wished the world would just stop turning. but if tht happens we'd all be dead so.. maybe not.

btw, i needa fix my watch. i was late for class this morn and thts no way to start the schl term. aiya, actually i dont really care also. haha at least they dont lock ya out.

and so, from now onwards mondays are officially gon be a big fat bitchh. but yano, ya win some you lose some. at least fer every tues and wed, NO LECTURES!

oh! and i dont like sharing. its by far the most hated thing! its random! dont get it do you? haha

à moi vous êtes parfait; 14:51

20060812

theleavingsong

There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away


oeiii, i know i know. its cheesy beyond cheesy. aiya but who cares. haha

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:57

20060811

just3

for those who wanna knoww, im feeling better, by much (:

shoutout to nickneo in the US of A, texas and mr.roy, thanks for the tips and advicee! u guys are the best!

it was really good to hear ur voicee (: tho time differences suck.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:31

20060810

aftertheworst

so anyways, havent been doing too hot lately. well, tht can happen when the most constant thing in ur life's gone. everything's less here without you, you know, days pass by slowerr, every sad song becomes a damn tear-jerker and nothings the same, really. and nothing/noone can help the way i feel. i hate airports. i really hate goodbyes

thanks bridge for understanding and for whatcha said on ur blog, it really made me smile. quote unquote,

i wish that there was something i could do to make my sister feel a kezillion times better. at this point if i could have anything in this world, it would be just that..

but we have to move on somehow. and after awhile, it'll all be alright again. time heals all wounds, its true, but some wounds need a longer time to recover, and during that healing period, its up to us whether we wanna stall or move on, because, its just life. it trips us sometimes, and we shouldnt let it burn our plans for the future ahead.

it helps to know tht there are plenty of people who care. sorry for being a party pooper on ur birthday yesterday tho, im glad ya had wonderful friends to make ur 17th a great onee. because national day, to me, din feel like anything at all, just another day in the calendar of long days to come.

but i guess its true, things will get better and theres definitely technology to help(i promise ill get my webcam soon!). the small things and people who help me get through the day, im truly grateful for. yet, its slowly sinking in that i wont be seeing him anytime soon, but ill just have to learn to look at the glass being half full huh. and its not like i wont get to talk to him at all, there are prepaid cards and the www and what not. its just distance and time, no biggie right? riiiight.

its the worst feeling in the whole damn world, but things are looking up and ill learn how to deal. itll be alright.

ps. sorry for the emo post. but its my blog and ill cry if i want to
ppss. thanks, you guys for making things better. vonee, bridge, sam for just being there, dareel for the lameness, the guys (kel carl jia klim) for the nice time out!
pppsss. you'll be alright too babby! ill tty real soon, i missed you loads today!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 11:50

20060809

goodbye,fornow

Nothing is forever and the time comes when we all must say goodbye to the world we knew. Goodbye to everything we had taken for granted. Goodbye to those we thought would never abandon us. And when these changes finally do occur, when the familiar has departed and the unfamiliar has taken its place, all any of us can really do is to say hello and welcome.

iloveyoubabyy.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 17:09

20060808

tomorrow,today

goodbyes are a mf bitch.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 02:07

20060805

3moredays

i miss the chocolatechip alot alot!

just had the ride of my life! haha was going to dawson to do some stuff, but the damn shop was clooooseed. pangsai lo! anyways bro gave me a lift back, on his stupid but oh-so-stylo/shiny stunt bike(ahem-poser!) :p haha hes my chauffeur for the day you see haha but i had to stand on those bars at the backwheel. WAH LAU, he cycles like friggin fast! plus, because its kinda slopey arnd here i almost friggin flew off the back laaa! i was holding on for dear life, palms gt damnnnnn sweaty and i almost dropped all my moolah. haha but it was super funnn aftr i realised i wasnt gon fall off/get hit by on-coming traffic/drop my money. haha

o! tennis was utter shit. must be the badminton tht day. boo-fucking-hoo haha

and so, just 3 more days before the world turns to crappppp ):

à moi vous êtes parfait; 20:34

20060804

dramanomore!

so anyways, there's been lots of drama, drama, drama lately(as vone puts it) haha. im not one to kiss and tell(haha!) but at least its resolved, without the ugly hair-pulling/bitchslapping or shouting/sobbing!! just talking. and being responsible for our own actions, be they recent or those that creep back frm the past to bite ya in the ass. but im glad that's over and behind! pheww~

ahh! and niqs going to malacca today! like now! till sunday. haha and den before ya know it, its TUESDAY!!! the tuesday. its all happening so quick my head's spinning! o btw, i should get a webcam soon! haha cos webcams are damn cute and cheap to communicate if ur 554864212133 light years away! haha. nothing beats having the person right in front of ya tho huh :p

yay gtta new mouse. and its white. haha boring white, but i like ittt (: so stylo mylo man. stupid brother had better not break it while dota-ing again.

oohh and recently(actually just tdy), im into usher again. haha his voice's nicee and smooth. he's damn good laaa. the sexy song! haha and the 'dance' niq, all you need now is a pole.

aiya, and bidding for modules is a royal P-I-A btw, so mafan, schools starting soon. like next week, but i have no idea wats going on. m i even signed up fer o week? HAHA shit. okays. i needa rest my head. while i can anyways haha. toodles!

à moi vous êtes parfait; 14:52

20060803

ruined

Charles Bukowski once wrote; 'There will always be something to ruin our lives. It all depends on what or which finds us first. You're always ripe and ready to be taken.'

i just don't understand why things can't be talked out instead of all the drama. i just don't get it.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 12:55

20060802

everysongends

Every song has a CODA, a final movement. Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of. It's just life.

à moi vous êtes parfait; 13:21

20060801

thefirstofthelast

ytd was the most irritating rainy day ever. and nus sucks big time. theyre the buncha most inflexible lot ever,but i think its just me tho. bad mood. bad attitude. cos i rlly dun see whats the big fuss bout orientation and all tht. think its all just a waste of time. its not like ure gon be good friends with the whole schl pls. rubbish!! but at least i gt to see niqq, and tht was the best thing tht happened the WHOLE DAY

ay, i shud really start posting some good quotes soon. i miss em! lol ohoh! i like the song close your eyes by turn! its soooooo so nice and sad, so go downloaddd!

yawns, badminton this morn was good. played like siaoo and ive nv sweat so much in my entire life lo. the weather was hot as crap tdy, shudve gone swimming instead! haha

so anyways, its down to the last week. one more week. one

à moi vous êtes parfait; 18:57

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